Amy’s mind was in a deep state of catastrophising.
After over a decade sober, a dark night of the soul, and in recovery one might think that the inner demons would be slain. And yet, for Amy there were some deeper wounds around her childhood that triggered new fears and anxieties.
Amy has dedicated her life to her children, sobriety and to helping other people recover from addiction. Amy is a highly successful project manager. After the abrupt ending of a long-term relationship Amy began to spiral.
Amy didn’t turn to her old vices, but other addictions crept in, and she began to feel deep anxiety and fell into a state of catastrophising. She found herself using disposable vapes and distracted herself with screens. There was some deep work around her wounded inner child that needed looking at.
“In the mornings I could have a deep sense of panic that would last for hours. My mind would go through all the worst-case scenarios.” Amy
Trapped in the cycles of the mind created suffering
Amy’s stress and anxiety, and her wounds from childhood were causing her to have very painful menstrual cycles and an unknown pain in her abdomen.
When she was young Amy developed patterns of avoiding pain at all costs. Experiences from her childhood meant that she had always sought external support for relief of pain rather than being able to be with it.
Amy had been to the NHS and had various tests and checks for the pain she was experiencing. No answers were provided. Amy’s fear drove her to going on to the internet and obsessively seeking for the solution or the reason.
This in turn brought about very strong sensations in her body and in her emotional self.
The deeper wounds of childhood were still to be healed
“I found myself in constant research, recurring cycles of looking online to see what would be wrong with me. This created enormous anxiety” Amy
Amy began a new intimate relationship during this time. She found herself reflecting on her past and how she had given over her power in relationships, and she had been pleasing other people.
All these were symptoms of co-dependancy. Seeking on the outside for a resolution within.
She noticed that she became quite angry and then that created resentment, when she gave into other people’s needs over her own.
“I don’t have to close myself off to other people’s feelings to not feel overwhelmed. I can feel empathy without overwhelm.” Amy
Amy worked through her triggers and to create boundaries with herself and with the way that she views her work. She was able to deepen her understanding of herself and the connection that she has with her new partner.
Amy has re-established her morning practices of meditation and yoga and found new breath work modalities and practices which have created deeper healing. By being with her pain she has been able to release fear. Finding pain and tension relief from within.
Amy was able to connect with her wounded child self and begin to understand how it affected her experience in the present moment.
On an energetic and physical level, where trauma was trapped in the body, the conscious connected breathwork has been able to begin to bring healing to the energetic traumatised self.
Amy found the path to feeling calm, relaxed, and free of anxiety. She felt confident in her work and was able to know where to put her energy.
“My boundaries are strong, and I have a deeper connection with my partner. I feel love and loved and we’re not arguing anymore.” Amy
Amy created better boundaries for herself, her relationship with family. Her new relationships, especially with her partner were able to deepen.
Amy re-established a close connection with her mind, body and soul and brought alignment to her life she feels whole again in herself.
Amy forgave herself.
